Hi Davit,
Hopefully you kept your balance and are safely seated. This attempt at humour is reassuring already!
As a young(and I'm far from that anymore, except mentally
) I dreamt of copying the kung fu masters that actor David Carradine imitated.
I also do want some community, since it seems to important. I actually feel the longing for some minimum contact. Someone it nurtures me, and I understand why people are hanging out at fast food places. It doesn't really take much for me either.
What I still don't get, and want to ask someone, is why I can't remember any of the steps. It may be a good thing? It may be that when I attend, I have given myself permission to completely be engrossed in the moment.
As for tapes, CD's, its a great idea, and I'll do that when I get the fix from being out. Looking at my ambitious schedule, I'm going to have to make choices, and maybe Tai Chi won't be the activity which gives me that small amount of community. I finally listed all the possible courses, and will choose something, soon.
Going out shopping got me stocked for the week, and I just washed my hair, so I'd like to just collapse in bed. A little reading will precede that though.