THANKS SO MUCH TO ALL OF YOU THAT HAVE REPLIED TO MY POST. I CRIED THE FIRST TIME I SAW THAT SOMEONE RESPONDED. TODAY I LAY IN BED DEPRESSED FOR UNTIL I PICKED MY DAUGHTER UP FOR SCHOOL AND FINALLY TOOK A SHOWER AFTER 3 DAYS (YUCK, HUH?) I GOT MY ATTACKING ANXIETY STUFF OUT AND STARTED BACK TO WORK. I AM ONLY ON LESSON TWO, AND IT IS REALLY DIFFICULT FOR ME TO TAKE SUCH A CLOSE LOOK AT MYSELF AND ALL OF MY FLAWS, REAL OR IMAGINED. ANYWAYS, BEFORE I KNEW IT, 45 MINUTES HAD PASSED AND I HAD MADE MYSELF A TO DO LIST. I DECIDED THAT ALCOHOL OBVIOUSLY WAS NOT THE ANSWER BECAUSE, A) I AM NOT REALLY ME (KIND OF FUN GAL THOUGH! LOL) AND, B) THE RESIDUAL EFFECTS ARE JUST MORE THAN I OR MY DAUGHTER NEED. ANXIETY IS ALWAYS GREATER AFTER I DRINK. WELL, GOTTA RUN. I HAVE A MEDITATION WALK TO TAKE. WISH ME LUCK. MUCH LOVE TO ALL.