Starr; I did do a lot of research after I had been on the various meds I tried, but they all have side effects in one way or another. I wrote letters to the hospitals, and drug companies, and brought up some concerns with surgeons when I had breast tumors removed. My surgeon did a special paper on my case, and now they have found in Toronto St. Margarets Hospital studies, that in fact if you are on these drugs for two or more years, you have a much higher chance of getting breast cancer than average. I was happy to be a part in the study, and to push for action there with other action groups too.
I have also been through a thorough body image hospital program which is designed to help you focus on the inner you, and blast the diets, because they usually make you worse. I even bought a pin that says NO MORE DIETING which I hide in my jewelry drawer now. I have really tried, but in the past 6 years or so I have been living in a country where all the girls are extremely thin, and having that in front of your face all the time is completely exhausting. I cannot get clothing in my size here below the waist. It has to be hand made, or ordered from overseas which really adds up. Men and children view me as a threat because of my size. I told the therapists at the body image program that I was afraid that this would eventually happen, and now it has. I have gained quite a bit since then. Even in a country which is known to have healthier foods and most people loose weight here. So....I have to cry about it here.
I just keep thinking I wish I had the money to get it all cut off. The rich people do. I think that hospitals and the people who design these medicines aught to supply not only more information about the products, but also what to do in case this happens. Now I am at a low point and wish to up my dosage of meds., if that doesn't sound crazy???but I am so depressed, I need something more. But....will I gain even more????What to do? Thank you for responding.
