HI Michelle, im new here, but i can identify with you, ive had mmd for thirty years i also have indescribable anxiety as well, my meds have just been increased amytriptylene 200mg i am sleeping a lot better, but i just dont know how i get through, i feel as though its always me who everyone has to work around and that makes me hate myself and what it does to my family they are very supportive and never complain, when im well i feel like ive been let out of prison,i enjoy life at least until the next time, i appreciate that it seems very negative and it doesnt matter how many times i go down, it is always the same and always very hard, it can be so soul destroying and seeks to squeese out the person that i am reading your post has helprd me tonight hope you feel better soon cadge