Hi all. I joined this site a couple of weeks ago,I found it by accident actually while I was surfing the net in what's been one of the lowest points in my life. So far, the tools have been wonderful aids, and the support received from users and specialists alike has been more than I would have ever thought possible. One of the places from where I received support was in (what I thought was unlikely at the time) my sister. Forgive the rambling, but I find that it helps immensely to write out things and for those who would like to reply, I'd love to hear your thoughts :-) I've found out recently, that I'm not actually as worthless as I have always thought. The saying really holds true; we can be our own worst enemies! Negative thoughts and phrases heard from early childhood into adult years have had an immense and intense effect upon me. Has anyone ever read the book "Don't sweat the small stuff"? My therapist recommended it to me, and advised me to read a chapter one day (the chapters are only about 3 pages long) and to absorb and practice that chapter the following day. The third day, read the second chapter, etcetera. Well, I've spent two days absorbing and trying to practice chapter 1, and before I would have run myself down for not catching onto the chapter as quickly as what I would have liked. Now, I can see and honestly say, that better to spend weeks on one chapter than to rush through it and have all of the positive effects not be lasting ones. Not a huge step, I know; but the point is that it's a step; and it's a step in what can only be an upward direction :-) At 37, I had envisioned a life much different for myself than the one that I have. I never believed that I would be still single, with no children, and at times that has made me think that I'm not worth loving and having a close relationship with. A relationship that I did have recently broke up, with us remaining as friends, due to the fact that my former boyfriend isn't sure if he wants to have a relationship with anyone and invest the amount of time that it takes. He is 35 and has not had a serious relationship until the one that we had. On a good note, things (although awkward at the moment because we just broke up two weeks ago) have gone much better in the fact that we c