It is possible the smoking triggered the old feelings. Like any drug, your body produces chemicals depending on your intake. Smoking is so bad for you that it should take little effort to realize the consequences. You have additional reasons to quit, which will boost your confidence! Never look back.
Seeing a social worker is a good first step. I see a therapist and think it helps. But, I would be lost without my meds. Make sure to see a doc and be honest with him/her. If you need meds then you need meds. Anything to get better. Good luck and congrats on the marriage.
Hi,
I'm 25 and recently married (8mos). I was severly depressed in high school and took various medications at different times (effexor, paxil, ativan). Recently I quit smoking after 6 years and have fallen again. For 5 years I felt wonderful and productive. I began a healthy relationship and rarely felt down about anything....I was so proud of myself for coming out of my "blue period". Now I'm starting a life with a wonderful man who has never seen me this way. I have no self-confidence, zero energy and always feel that something is missing. I feel defeated that depression has struck again. I made an appointment to talk to a social worker on wednesday and cant wait! I don't want to go on meds again. Has anyone else had this experience with smoking? It feels good to get this out.
Bodhi