Hi, I'm new here. I'm desperate to find some help and came upon
this website. I'm due to have my second baby at the end of next
month. I have a history of depression but haven't been treated for
it for awhile--went off antidepressants (which never really helped
much) before I got pregnant the first time in early 2003.
I'm feeling like a horrible, unworthy human being. I have a
wonderful daughter and my husband says he loves me--but we've
been drifting further and further apart. He has no interest in me
physically and while he's always said that it's because we are not
getting along, he finally admitted last night that he is not
attracted to me right now (not his exact words, but it was
something like--"you're less sexy when you're pregnant." It just
destroyed me.
I can't seem to snap out of this. I keep crying and crying though
I'm trying to hide this from my daughter. In the meantime, I'm
also losing my patience with her (toddler tantrums, etc.) My
husband is just sick of me being this way; I don't know how much
longer he can take it. I feel like such an ugly, fat, idiotic loser. I
want to feel better, and I want to be there for my husband and
daughter (and new child). I've been trying to reach a therapist (my
former one plus a new referral) all day and won't be able to get in
until next week. Don't know what to do in the meantime. My
husband is tired of my negativity and sadness. I need some
advice or input or reassurance or something!
