I went to go see him this weekend. I wasn't there too long and I couldn't handle it so I came back home. It's been a hell of a two weeks and things just seem to keep happening. Well hopefully after tomorrow things will clear up, I'm going to the doctor to start a new anti-depressant. Thanks guys, you put a smile on my face when I read your messages. It's good to feel like someone cares.
hi kelsey,
happy belated birthday! Blow out your candles here.
Im sorry to hear about your situation with your ex and your friend. You are not alone, it just feels that way, I know the feeling. Im slowly getting over it and so will you...its going to take time.
Sending a lot of hugs and birthday shouts your way :)
I have been talking to my boyfriend this week but it's so hard to hear the disappointment in his voice. At this point I just want to give up on everything. It's soooo hard to keep going. I've explained to him that I'm depressed and i've spend the whole week thinking about what happened, why I lied, EVERYTHING!!! It's just sooo hard right now because I'm supposed to go and see him tomorrow (he lives 7 hours away) but he doesn't want to see me. So now I'll be spending the weekend depressed thinking what could have been! I just feel so lost! And yeah my "friend" is nosy.
I've just started the sessions so i'm doing session 1 tonight.
Kelesy,
This week sounds like it has been a very miserable week for you. These weeks happen to everyone and although they are unfortunate we have to learn how to deal with them and move on. This is a great opportunity for you to really get to learn about yourself and you relationships with others. There are some great educational tips in the Weekly Sessions.
Session 6 works with challenging your negative thoughts. You may be thinking that you are unlovable or that you will never find another person, challenge these and don’t let yourself withdrawal from others or dwell too much on the past. DL had a great suggestion to send and e-mail to your boyfriend to explain your side of the story.
Session 11 will help you understand your relationship with people and introduce you to some communication methods that you may not be familiar with. This could really help you with your friends.
Brenna, Bilingual Support Specialist
Oh, Right! I remember now you wrote elsewhere that your girlfriend took it upon herself to tell your boyfriend that you had been with some other guy during a break-up period with your boyfriend... what a nose-y friend!
I'm still not sure why she thinks you're 'selfish' but who knows what the guilty mind can come up with after her betrayal of you to your boyfriend...
have you tried writing a long email explaining what the brief encounter was all about to your ex-? Might work...
well my closest friend said that everyone else she knows told her not to be my friend because I am selfish and now she sees what they are talking about. On the night of my birthday my boyfriend found something out that I was hiding from him and when I realized this he had already left. I got mad at my girfriend for telling him and now I'm selfish. This girlfriend knows about my depression and has never really cared about my feelings and my struggles. I'm not so upset with her leaving as the guilt of hurting my boyfriend. I'm having a really hard time with that. I haven't been sleeping and all week i've been feeling like a zombie walking around about to break down at any given time. I can't seem to snap out of it.
And handing out food for the homeless sounds like a good idea to spend my christmas doing.
kelsey,
Happy birthday to you.
happy birthday to you.
Happy birthday, happy birthday, happppyyyy birrthdayyyy to yyooouuu.
I usually swack. I ain't much a singer.
Have your friends told you you are selfish - straight out? Have they told you they would not or could not be with you? Sometimes depression makes us see the negative side,... we are sad and have lots of horrible thoughts about ourselves and when someone says no - we dump all our feeling and hurts onto that no.
I am not judging you nor your friends. I was not there. I am trying to get you to see that maybe your friends had legitimate reasons for not being with you and they will happily celebrate your day of birth a few days from now...
And Christmas is always a tough time alone or surrounded... I often find myself alone in the middle of a crowd. I am afraid of letting my family in and Christmas has so many BAD memories that if I could... I would spend it serving Christmas dinner in a shelter for the homeless where my temporary company is all that is needed and it is appreciated.
Sorry about your birthday being a mess Kelsey...
And the loss of your Cell - and your boyfriend gone too! What a day. Why would your friends think you "selfish" ? Tell us about what happened and maybe someone can share some experiences with you about all this.
Everybody cares on here Kelsey and there's quite a way between here and Christmas to sort out your relationships.
Let us know what happened,
well today I feel like I have no one! All my friends turned around a ditched me on my birthday. They all think I'm selfish so now there's no one. My boyfriend broke up with me and yesturday my cell phone got stolen so I spent 320$ to replace it. I just feel so beaten down today. Like I have officially hit rock bottom! I just feel like nobody cares! Christmas is coming and I'll be spending it alone!
