Dear Group,
I have been suffering with severe clinical depression all my life although I was only diagnosed about 8 years ago. I came across this site today as I was searching for some help. I have not been doing well lately, and was really looking for someplace to talk to others who would truly understand. I see a therapist approx. every 5 weeks, and am on Zoloft and Wellbutrin. I am very concerned that I am not feeling better than I do considering what I try to do to help myself. I do ok for a while and then my mood just drops quickly. I know right now I am having trouble becuase this is my first Christmas without my father. He died last February, and we had a great relationship. I miss him very much. But other times there really isn't any reason for me to be sad. I understand that the doctors have told me that my problem is chemically induced and that I shouldn't feel like I am "weird" if I can't "pull up my bootstraps and move on". The thing that bothers me most of all is what this does to my husband sometimes. I love him with all my heart, and I love being married to him, but when I am really low, he often makes comments that he feels like he isn't enough to make me happy. That couldn't be farther from the truth, and in a "perfect world" I wouldn't have DO and he would know just how happy he does make me.
Wow, I really need to stop right now. This is more than I have shared about my feelings in a long time. I will stop babbling now and just say hello to everyone. I hope my ramblings haven't scared anyone. I'm really not this talkative most of the time.
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