Hi Jennielou79
I too had similar problems at work, and now I just say to hell with them, I've worked all my life, very very long hours, the past year I was barely seeing my wife, I was out driving a truck from 6pm until 9am breakfast, bed and up at 5pm to go back to work 5 days a week, and far too tired to socialise on a weekend.
Dont even worry about the HR Rep, or her sarcastic comments or looks, 8 weeks ago I was so desperate I was ready to end it all, but I sought help, I love my wife so much I cant understand now why I was getting so bad with depression, I made an excuse up to go to the doctors so I did not alarm her and he directed me to this site, I find taking part in the CBT program you learn a lot of useful advice, I am still worrying about what people think of me, but to hell with them, I am more important and you should feel the same the same way about yourself, I spoke with a counsellor last Friday and she tried to explain that there is light at the end of the tunnel, despite my thoughts that its just somebody with a torch bringing me more to worry about.
If I wrote a book about my life, it would be classed as a Novel fantasy, its that unbelievable, and its only now that I am starting to realise how I got myself into the depressed state I'm in.
Good Luck, join the CBT its a wonderful program.
