Thank you for telling us a bit about what you have been going through. Please know that depression has nothing to do with being weak. With this program and our help challenge this belief as guilt around having depression is counter productive. It seems clear you are quite the opposite of weak.
You have come to the right place; you are not alone in this. The program here is based on Cognitive Behaviour Therapy which is one of the best known treatments for both Depression and Anxiety. Take your time reading through the sessions and be sure to take the time to work on the homework. It does take time and work but if you stick with it you will see results.
How have you been coping? What has worked in the past for you?
From the time I was a young child, I was exposed to a great deal of trauma and stress. This has carried through into my adult life (now 43). The one thing I have always had going for me was an amazing level of resiliance. I have been able to put on a brave front, pick myself up, dust myself off and carry on with very few people knowing the realities that I have been dealing with. I have been quite successful in my career so again, people would never suspect my struggles. I am the fixer and glue in my family (how can I fall apart?)
I have been suffering from significant and now fairly severe deppression for years. I started on medication over ten years ago. In the last six months I have increased my medications considerably but feel no better. I also live with chronic pain in my head and neck. This year, I have taken many days off work, not able to get out of bed or in tremendous pain. I am quickly losing my resiliance. I am so very worried. I would never take my life as I could not do that to my family but I am often amazed that my heart doesn't just stop as a result of feeling so terrible. I am barely hanging on. I am holding up the facade but it is overwhelming. My chronic pain has been ruled as a result of tension/stress. Most people would not know I am stressed. It is killing me from the inside out though. I can barely get through a day of work anymore. I am reaching out to other people who are living in the dark shadows of depression and masking it. Too many people depend on me. I do not want to ever appear weak. How do other people cope?
