cernan,
Oh boy do I know your situation! I was sooo there!
Perhaps one of my first exercises was to be with people. I pushed myself to be with friends and even voluteered in causes that were important to me. Once there, I had to remind myself, that people were not enduring me they had made their own choise to be here and if they were only enduring then they would say no the next time.
Funny, there were next times!
Then I began to to find a good thought for each bad ... they must think me nuts, they appreciate my humor and accept my quarks. I am the most boring person on the planet, they must need the calm and relax astmosphere I encourage - they do not need to perform with me.
Many years later, I have learned to take complements and acknowledge that I can complete a task satisfactoraly. I am worthy!
only thing was that I had were a few library books and a few sessions with Bobby-boy -the pysch stagiere- . I had a lot of searching and questioning to do. I had to figure out what was "normal" and find some way to emulate it. I always felt like the odd person out. I couldn't quite understand what was going on.
What have you been working through in your 50 minutes? you might be able to take those sessions and bring them into the CBT here??? take a look.
