Hello Wishing Well and everyone It's interesting that I'm reading today that you are having no ability to cry or be angry. For the last two days, since "upping" my Lamictal, I feel totally blah and emotionless. Prior to this, I cried a whole lot - almost anyting could bring tears. I would also get angry when thinking about "stuff". But I would also find peace and serenity when walking in the park; I would find feelings of creativity when taking my photographs; I would feel love and gratitude when my cats would snuggle up to me a purr. Now I don't feel any of those positive things either. The only thing I feel is distress and not feeling anything. I didn't like the misery; I would often feel like death would be a relief. I haven't felt like that for 2 days and some would say that's progress, but I hate not feeling the few positive things that gave me comfort and serenity. I think it's the meds, and it makes me want to QUIT them immmediately. I see my pdoc on Wednesda;y, and will talk to him about it. I know he will be against it, but I cannot live feeling nothing at all. That's as bad to me as feeling too much. Sort of feels like I finally got what I wanted - to be dead.
