Phillip... Have a seat my friend. This is going to be long. I have so enjoyed watching your quit grow and seeing you express the changes I've felt as well. That being said, I cannot sit back and let your last post go without giving you my point of view.
Do I believe that God makes us quit... No Way! We got ourselves into this mess and we have to get ourselves out. Do I believe God gives us strength when we ask for it... yes I do. I also believe that everyone is entitled to their opinion about the Lord, a Higher Power, God, Buda, or the rocking chair on the back deck, or the non-existence of any of the above. However...... I have something I would like to share with you. Personal experience.... And I might add this is very personal.....
I have been through lots of tough times when I really wasn't sure how I was going to feed or cloth my children. I have been jobless with 2 kids to take care of, a mortgage to pay, and no one to turn to. The good Lord above provided for us... out of the blue sky... day after day and that is when I began to believe even though I had been a church goer on and off for most of my life. Years went by and I got a little comfortable in that. A situation came up that I couldn't handle...didn't know what to do.. but I wanted to do what was right. You see I had made a mistake and God was dealing with me and allowing me to suffer the consequences of that mistake. It was a doozie too, trust me.... Regardless, the situation caused me to put my faith back in the Lord where it belonged and he brought me through.
We all get into our comfort zones and we have to be careful of where those zones lead us. I can tell by your post that you believe in good and evil and that you try to be on the good side of that. It comes through in the emotions that you express here. Quitting smoking is a soul searching, life changing experience..... You will hear me say that time and time again. I am a firm believer in everything happens for a reason.
I want to share with you a story.... Just a little food for thought. As always... Take what you want and leave the rest... :)
Regardless of what you may think of this post, you could chuck it all, You are still a great quitter in my book!
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