Kaiser,
I agree with what everyone else has already said about this... smoking dulls everything... our sense of smell, taste, etc... and it also dulls our emotions. Suddenly after quitting, we are more emotional. Many of us cry at the drop of a hat, or get angry instantly, or suddenly feel excited or happy for no reason. Without the crutch of smoking, we are now able to feel more and sometimes, those feelings lead to depression. Yes, depression is common when quitting, but the quit process is an overall change in ourselves and as we change, we grow, develop and mature and over time, that depression SHOULD lesson and eventually go away... unless there was something there before that is now causing the depression to be worse.
As for the guilt of your relapse... there's not a whole lot of good that can come from focusing on the past. If you're constantly looking backwards, you're going to stumble on what's ahead of you!!! Look at where you're going instead of where you've been. Now, I will say that a little bit of guilt and being down on yourself is a good thing... it reminds of you of how you felt when that happened and I know for me, that's one thing that's keeping me from screwing up again... I don't want to go through the hell I went through after my screw ups!!! I was SO mad at myself... I was crying, I felt like there was no way I would ever be able to quit for good (obviously, I was wrong) and I was all-around sad and miserable for WEEKS after my screw ups. I will NEVER forget how that felt because that's one thing that keeps me going... I'm scared of myself and of how mad I will be if I were to screw up again. So, it's good to feel a little guilty, but you've done that... and now it's time to move on.
Crave the Quit!
Pam
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 10/28/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 166
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 4,163
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $685.58
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 12 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 1 [B]Seconds:[/B] 53
