Eyja,
I can definitely relate, because I have been there. And don't forget, now that the Christmas season is over, its somewhat of a letdown at the best of times, and there are always some extra pounds that have to be dealt with.
My doctor told me when I quit smoking that things happen in three's. First three days of quitting is hard, first three weeks is really hard, first three months, things are getting a little easier, and the first 3 years, situations and thoughts and feelings can come up and slap us in the face without warning.
Now there are times when I get days like that, only difference is, I don't think about cigarettes anymore, because now they have absolutely no meaning for me. and you will get to that point too!
Treat yourself with kindness today, don't get down on yourself, but respect your feelings and don't push too hard. Perhaps a nice hot bath, a soothing cup of tea after work, and an easy night. Tomorrow is a brand new day!
And congratulations on your stats. You are nearly at the one year mark, Eyja. That is fantastic. All your hard work is paying off. Remember to reward yourself for all your accomplishments. You did the right thing by posting how you felt today. I would do that whenever I felt down too.
Keep going strong,
Jan