I'm extremely sorry for your loss - death is the worst thing ever :( Congratulations on choosing non-smoking coping mechanisms though. Stay strong and again my condolences.
I am so sorry for your loss and to hear about your struggles through the past year. Know that we are here for you and we wish you strength.
Thank you for sharing this with us and letting us in on your experience. I do want to give you credit for staying smoke-free throughout the past year and although you are not feeling like celebrating now we are here when you are ready.
Hello to all my quit buddies, it has been 3 years for me now. Yay!!
This past year has been the worst year of my life. I watched my mom get sick, then get diagnosed with carsina sarcoma of the uterus. 3 to 5 out of 100,000 cancer patients get this type of cancer. She was diagnosed July 11, and passed September 15, she was a young 68 years of age. This is by far the worst and most horrifying experience of my life, and if I ramble I am sorry, but I am still grieving the loss of my mom. You hear the word cancer all the time, you see it on the news, so and so has cancer, its everywhere. But until someone close to you has it, or you yourself have it...well thats when you really find out what it is. The treatment is barbaric, chemo may save lives, but from what I seen it do to my mom, I don't know if I could ever do it. I just keep reliving this nightmare over and over in my head every damn day, it just won't go away.
Anyway, I could go on and on. My mom excaped her suffering with all of us close to her side. I made it through everything without smoking, which I find to be a miracle in itself. If their ever was an excuse to start up again, that would be a pretty good one. So I guess this is supposed to be a celebration, but to be honest, I'm just not feeling it.
