Serenity's post was thought provoking. A lot of moms do this very thing; sometimes out of necessity..the lessons, the sports, the homework, the rides to friends homes, the shopping, etc. But, when we finally get a moment to ourselves, I would want to indulge my addiction. I was "peopled out, touched out, Mommied! out". I pretty much wanted to be by myself and smoke. After so many years of being a mommie, I kind of lost the pezazz that I had when i was younger. I remember telling funny stories and making people laugh..having more excitement coming out of my pores. But, living 15-20 more years does take a toll on people,life experiences that are sad, disappointing, or even tragic..and druggin myself with smoking did not help. And some people use smoking as a tool to isolate themselves from others.
The new me is emerging..I get a glimpse of her at times. But, I am still too tied to this addiction, or should I say, too bothered by it as of yet. I love reading about the total freedom phase of this journey. And, taking some ME time ,finally, is a self esteem booster; a sign that maybe we are loving ourselves a little more.
new me
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]5/26/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 147
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,528
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $735.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 20 [B]Hrs:[/B] 6 [B]Mins:[/B] 2 [B]Seconds:[/B] 9
