Seamus,
Even you can quit! Your words speak volumes for the conflict going on within yourself right now. I don't pretend to know much about you but I do know what that battle feels like. All of the arguing with the junkie that lives within our minds. The one who said you can quit tomorrow. Today isn't a good day. Next week will be better. After I get through xxx then it will be a good time to quit. If I just finish XXXX first, then I will be ready and strong enough to quit.
Sound like the voices you hear? There isn't ever going to be a time that quitting will be easy. There isn't ever going to be a time that the voices will be quiet. The only way to get away from the addiction is to give it up. Let it go and refuse to let it control you any longer. You do have the key. Put the cigarettes down and walk away. Get rid of all smoking materials, matches, lighters and ashtrays. Kick, scream, throw fits, cry, punch a pillow, break dishes, do whatever it takes just don't smoke NO MATTER WHAT!
When you feel like you can't go another minute without smoking, go five! When it feels like it won't ever end, dig deep, dig in and don't give up. Breaking free of this horrible addiction is a fight for your life. Literally a fight for your life.
Smoking doesn't make us feel any better, it doesn't make any problems go away, and contrary to popular belief, it causes stress not cures it. Get it into your head that you are an addict. REFUSE to be a slave for another moment. The only way to the other side is to go through the hell. I will not lie to you. Quitting IS hell for a lot of us. Look around at all these people who have fought the battle! We win one day at a time. You can do the same. There is no need to be embarassed. You are among many here who feel your pain.
Pick yourself up, brush yourself off, dig deep, get quit, and stay that way.
Lady :)
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]7/1/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 740
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 14,800
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $2,590.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 66 [B]Hrs:[/B] 19 [B]Mins:[/B] 24 [B]Seconds:[/B] 6