Alright. As some of you know I was on here Spring 2014. I did the steps. I was able to go up to 3 miles comfortably alone, stay in a place alone comfortably, and come back comfortably. I was also able to fly alone even though I didn't enjoy the airports, but I did it.
Fast forward to October 2014. I was then able to only drive up to 2 miles comfortably. (Mind you driving in nice areas)
Now present time October 2015 I'm lucky if I get to a mile comfortably on my own.
However, I have done the methods provided in this and baby step exposure therapy like professionals and those who have overcome a driving phobia have recommended along with CBT.
What is going on? Why am I getting worse if I have done the methods provided here, baby step exposure therapy, eliminating bad things from my life, taking vitamins, taking a medicine, etc?
I have started to question my anxiety. Like today I was telling a friend if I could comfortably drive 3 miles alone in Spring 2014 there's no reason I can't comfortably do that now. I am questioning my anxiety more and more.
For many years I had severe pain in my left shoulder blade, clavicle, and neck and it would crack really loudly. I saw a chiropractor, a very good one. But this past July I went for deep tissue massage and the results have been amazing.
Now if only massage therapists cured agoraphobia, and in fact the place I went was some of the first place I started to notice a behaviour change of being afraid of being outside of the home alone and of needing to eat when feeling scared or stressed. And before that massage parlour I used to go to one even farther away but stopped because it was too far so funny I remember this now.
I am wondering if people here can write either here or to themselves on paper everything they remember from the time they were infants until the time they finished senior kindergarten (for Canadians) (regular kindergarten for Americans). As we begin to write we will remember more. Perhaps it is our early history where our stories lie of developing anxiety disorder. I'm sure I started developing mine at age 4 learning I was adopted, but it became full blown in my mid twenties.
To think I used to travel the world alone and now I'm lucky if I make a mile.
