Hello everyone! My name is Aaron Major and I have suffered from clinical depression for as long as I can remember. My mood is generally full of worry, anxiety, and despair interspersed with periods where my symptoms seem to disappear. Unfortunately, the good times are in short supply. Sometimes, I struggle with anger attacks that apparently result from the persistent feelings of despair and hopelessness. Fortunately, I never cause anyone nor myself physical harm. But, the emotional impact of my inconsistent spells of anger are devestating. Sometimes, I say things that I don't mean to those I love. Other times, I destroy things that are very valuable and sentimental to me.
I desperately want not to feel this way but, my emotions do not give up easily. Further, I am taking Paxil and Remeron again after discontinuing it about 6 months ago because I thought I could do without it. My girlfriend is trying to understand what I am going through but, for her own sake I hope that she never fully has to experience what I feel. I am a very intelligent, analytical, and passionate man which probably does not help in my struggle to conquer my negative thoughts. Well, I just wanted to introduce myself to all of you out there that share in my struggle to overcome saddness. Oh, and I am now 28 years old. I will try to check back frequently to take part in the discussions.
