Melanie- I tried, but my doctor won't be in till Thursday? Susan- PS I'm really depressed and didn't even go to my first day of work today :-( I hate my Therapist for what he has done and what I have allowed him to do to me. Help!

Baby- What happened to your Therapist and your relationship? Did you end it? Can you go into more detail about it? Susan-

Susan, Your last post indicated that you may need to see your doctor earlier than Thursday! Is there any chance that you can see your doctor later on this afternoon? Tell them that it is in the best interest for you and tell them what you have told us online. Keep us posted! Melanie

I had a similar situation happen with a counselor that I was seeing. I became really crazy about him, and we had a relationship too for a little while.

Melanie- I am going on Thursday to my family doctor and then I will discuss what my Therapist did to me. I want him to pay. I'm so depressed that now I cant' even go to my new JOB. I just got this job and dont' feel like going or doing anything because I'm so depressed. I just feel like dying or killing him then myself. Susan-

Susan, You will have to let someone know what this Therapist has done. We all know that it is not right what has happenend to you! Do you have a family doctor? If so, bring this situation up. You are going to have to talk about this and if you need to find a new therapist or family doctor, then please do so! Take care, Melanie

Heather- Thanks for responding to me. I decided I am no longer going to see my Therapist. I told the guy I'm living with about how my Therapist crossed the line with me and my man is ****ed! He said there is going to be a stop to this! So, I'm not sure what he's going to do. He told me just not to worry about it, so I won't. I got a job at this GYM as a Membership Consultant and I start tomorrow. I am abit nervous and that's where I screw up and get scared and don't go to work because I guess I have no self-esteem and no confidence in myself and plus I'm just so depressed, so I just don't feel like going or see any point. I am going to try to go because it seems like it's a good job and all. We will see though. I always get scared of going to a new place or job. I don't know why. I do have alot of issues and do need to find another Therapist like you said. This time I'm going to get a woman! Hopefully, she won't try to take advantage of my vulnerbilty and actually try to help me rather then screw me up even more. I have given some thought into the hospital thing. I'm just not sure if I really want that. I'm also not sure what to do about my Therapist? What would you do if your Therapist took advantage of you and touched in places and just totally crossed the line with you? Now, he's calling me and asking for his money that I owe him for the sessions? He has some nerve! It really makes me ****ed! I feel so violated and small. That's why I'm so depressed now. It's traumatized even more then I already was from my past. So, have any suggestions for me? Thanks. Susan-

Hi Susan It sure sounds like you are having a rough time right now. It does sound like we have a lot in common. I was never raped by anyone else. That is horrible what happened to you. The fact that you are still functioning shows that you have a lot of strenght and courage. I can't help but think that an affair with your therapist can only have a bad outcome for you. This guy crossed the line bigtime...and he knows it. I know you say you love him but you have to get out of this situation. It is you who is going to be hurt badly not him. I am sure that seeing him is all wrapped up with the issues with your father. This therapist keeps telling you that he thinks he is doing you harm...and he KNOWS that he is. I beg you for your sake to get out of this and find a good therapist who you can talk to about this. Please do what you need to do to protect yourself. By your own account you have had a lot of issues to deal with in the past. You need a GOOD therapist to help you figure this out. I just got out of the hospital again. This time I was in for two months. If you think you need to be in a hospital then I am sure that you do. Not forever but it is good if you are unstable to get some assistance. Also you would be safe and protected there. It would also give you some distance to figure out the therapist issues. I wish you all the best with your struggles. hugs heather

I too was also raped and sexually molested by my father when I was younger. My father died when I was 15, so I didn't have a chance to talk to him about this. It has screwed me up in the worst way. I'm 26 now. I got alot issues from it. I hit myself when I get upset or mad or whatever, but not everytime. It really bothers me. I just feel like giving up and dying. I have alot of sucidal thoughts as well. Now, I'm trying to get my life together. I figure new year, new me. I was married for 2 years to a Polish man, then he left after he just used me for the Greencard. That, alone, screwed me up and since last year I got fired from my job after my husband left and haven't worked for over a year now. Just been really depressed and smoking marijuana and doing XTC and putting myself in bad situations. Now, I am trying to get my life back together. I am now divorced, no kids. I have had 2 aborations. One when I was 15 and the other just last Fall. I was raped as well when I was 18. Like I mentioned before I was abused by my father too. I am in Therapy and have been on Paxil Cr before, but it made me more depressed cause I gained 20 pounds from taking it, so I stopped taking Paxil after 3 or 4 months of being on it. I'm glad I stopped or else I would be a pig by now. :-) Anyhow, I have been through a great deal myself and I just turned 26 years old. It's hard. I live with this guy who I met last year and who has been there for me when I was going through a rough time, but now he's depressed and I still am as well, so it makes things twice as hard as they were from before. I just wish I could be normal and happy. Sometimes, I think I'm crazy. I hit myself. That really scares me and makes me cry. I do alot of other things that make me wonder. I even sometimes thing I should check myself into a Hospital myself and tell them to lock me up for good cause I don't feel I can fuction in this world. I'm also dealing now with this fact my Therapist has crossed the line with me. A few sessions ago, he kissed me and we messed around, but did not have intercourse. He told me he cares for me and loves me and I said the same back, but now he's worried he may have made things worse for me. I'm so confused onto what to do about it. I keep seeing him a

Hi LosingIt- Would you like to talk? Susan- :)