Hi Jen
I am sorry that you are having such a bad time right
now. I am glad your boyfriend is so understanding.
He sounds like a great guy and he sounds like he
loves you a lot. Has he ever said that he wants to
leave you? If he hasn't please don't torture yourself
with thinking he will. No good can come of it.
I urge you to try again to get help. I know how hard
it is to ask for help and I know how hard it is to
disclose all of the information and feelings. But you
have to do this for yourself. You deserve to feel
happy and confident and secure. YOU ARE
WORTH IT!
Please don't do what I did. I waited for so long to
seek help that I have become a giant mess. I am
the poster child for what can go wrong if you don't
get help. Believe me you don't want to travel the
road I am travelling. Please do what you can do to
avoid ending up in some very desparate situations.
Please take gentle loving care of yourself as you
would if some friend or family member came to
you with the same story. I would hate to see you
being worried and upset more than you need to.
Please find the strength within yourself (and I know
it is there) to seek help. I know that you can do it.
I wish you all the best in your battle.
heather
I have never been happy with the way I look and the way I act around people. I have always been very shy and feel large (i am 5foot4 and weigh 9stone 10). I have been with my partner for 4 years now and he is vrey understanding, but I dont know how much longer he will put up with me.
I have felt depressed on and off for a long time, but recently it became worse. I really hate myself. I feel extremely stressed and i have become very obsessive over certain things (i have very negative thoughts when my partner goes out without me and i get in a state. I have horrible thoughts about him being hurt in some way which i dont seem to be able to control and this causes us to argue as he doesnt understand). I have also started to hurt myself recently. When i get upset over tings I will scratch myself.
I did pluck up the courage to go to the doctor, but he told me that there was nothing he could do as Id been feeling this way for too long and that if i wanted help i should go and find someone to talk to (i didnt tell him everything i have said in this message as i did not feel able to). I have since changed doctors, but i dont feel able to go back and talk to anyone.
does anyone have any advice as I really dont know what to do any more. My bpyfriend is understanding and i try to talk to him, but i think it makes him feel uncomfortable as he doesnt know help me.
