I have the same issue Ive been hospitalized 2x and lost everything both times. I still have those thoughts but try to suffer through for my daughter because although I want my life to end, I dont want hers to
My advice is to go talk to your GP "off the record" and explain the situation that you're in. noone should have to live because of anyone else everybody should have the right to feel good, do what they want and have their own life (remember that for when your children grows up).
Anyway, if your GP is not totaly heartless I dont think they'd object to perscribe medication for you without hospitalization (dont admit that you're suicidal, you're not looking for compasison here just help). you could try to get their email and write to them explaining about your situation (thus giveing you time to present the problem and express yourself in a clever way).
take care, best of luck.
Hi mouse! I feel awful for you and I can say I know how you feel but not to the same extent. I've attempted 4 times since 1996 and the last one came very close to being successful. The only advice I have for you is to look at your two children and consider them a blessing. Make them your reason to go on. Lately I have felt like I am hopeless and my son and husband would be better off with out me. Then I look at my 3 year old son and realize I would do him more harm by not being here for him. Imagine the impact that it would have on children to lose a parent to suicide. I hope I was of some help. Tabbeycat
I have been searching for an answer/advice to this question for awhile now with no luck. I have Major depression and anxiety and have been hospitalized for them in the past. (it was an immediate answer to the welfare of my safety according to the police but did not help me in the long run). So here it is: What do you do when you know you should ask for help because you are depressed and suicidal, but if you do ask someone for help they immediatley place you in the hospital which would cause you to lose your job which would cause you to lose your housing (which I finally got after being homless for 2 years with 2 kids) thus you may as well be dead and gone anyway. Its all I can do everyday not to drive my car off a cliff, and I know I will not be able to fight the urge by myself much longer. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. I cant talk with my counselor about how I really feel for fear of being hospitalized.