Hi-
I came across your message. I am too in the same bind. I have lost alot of friends. Matter of fact, I have none really. You may be right though about what you said about them really not being friends in the first place. Friends come and go anyhow. You'll always meet new ones. That's how I try to look at it. But, I do know what your going though. I have been depressed now for many years. I am 26, Divorced and living with a new boyfriend now. No kids. Just depressed. I even tried to kill myself. I even hit myself when I get mad or upset. I also have tried to drink myself to death and have tried marijuana and XTC. Now, I am trying to turn my life around and finally moved out of my mothers house. I am living with my boyfriend now. I have been seeing a Therapist for the last 2 years just about. It hasnt' helped. I have even tried Paxil CR before and then got off of it cause it didn't help me it just made me gain 20 pounds, which made me more depressed. My hushand left me over a year ago and after that things just went down hill from that point on. I have never felt this bad in my entire life! It really sucks and I do know how it feels. Now, another issue cause I am unemployed and looking for a job at the momment, so that is stressing me out as well. I got my Therapist who's a man in his 50's hitting on my too while I see him every weekend for our regular sessions. I'm not sure what to do about that. I like him too and he as well. My friends think I'm insane and should stop seeing my Therapist and find another one, but I tried and went right back to him. I'm so lost and confused I just think I'm going to lose it and have a nervous breakdown at some point. I'm just so depressed that I don't know what to do anymore. I'm hoping once I find a job I will do better etc. Anyhow, hang in there cause I am. Take care.
Susan-
