Thanks Jana for the support!
I did contact my therapist from several years ago and should be meeting with her this upcoming week. I am on a waiting list though, so if that doesn't pan out I will make alternate plans.
I know I am need some direction because I refuse to let things get bad like they once were.
Now, if I could just get these horrible thoughts that linger in my head out I would be fine. This is just awful to go thru, especially when you cannot find a cause for it.
Anyway, thanks for the support! It is needed.
I am afraid to tell family and friends because they have seen me doing so well in the past few years...
Hi. I too have been diagnosed with BPD and have daily thoughts of suicide. You said it has been several years since you've had these thoughts, and I am wondering if you are under the care of a doctor or therapist right now. Does anyone know you are feeling this way? Could you tell someone? Please let someone know. You said you don't know where these feelings are coming from, and maybe they could help you find out, or at least help them go away! It is so unbelievably frustrating when things are going great and boom! back into the hole we fall. I know you know this, but hang in there!
It has been several years since I had such deeply bad feelings raging inside of me. I thought that part of my life was over and out of nowhere I am starting to feel this way again. I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and for a long time dealt daily with suicidal feelings, voices, self mutilation.
For the past 4 years I have been almost symptom free...thought those horrible low feelings were all cleared up.
They are back...and getting worse. Help!
