Hi everyone,
maybe i get some feedback on my condition...
It started april 2003 when I noticed a sensations before going
to bed (like a electricity pasing trough body up end down)
Ussualy they would be 2-3x b4 bedtime. Then when driving
in a car and entering a tunnel I started to have this wierd
feeling of anxiety or maybe some kind of fear. Had to stop
couple of times when out of tunnel to get some air and get
out of a cabin...Anyhow so far so good but then I started to
have panic attacks ussualy at 2 oclock in the morning and
that got joined with some strange anxiety when with people.
So I got woried for my heart (irregular beat, racing heart etc)
and moved from living on my own (33 years old) back to my
parents and since then canot get back on myfeet so to speak.
It feels like there is a disconecttion from other people and
friends, feeling of emptines in my body and head, extreame
amount of racing toughts and a constant hypersesitivity to
colors, rooms , noise, people ets like there is nowhere I can
rest. Have these fears of beeing on my own and if I go out it
feels like I am completly vonerable and external events
trigger my thinking(certain moment gives u a trigger to a
flashback that then unfolds in a series of tougths) so my
brain is constatly engaged in a batle and I am worried that I
am loosing my ground...I tried with tranqulisers (helex,
lorsilan, both benzo) with no result. most frustrating thing is
that I feel like I am drifting down the spiral into my childhood
and that everymorning my starting point is lower and
lower.My confidence is as low as u can go and self asteem is
down. Just like something totaly drained me and u end like
empty bag.
Just to mention I was rather an ergetic and full of life person
witha great heart and devoted to my job. Was taking life with
"big spoon" that makes it even harder to understand
Thanx for replies
Z
