Oh do I know what you're talking about! I have had bouts of depression for years but now that I am on venlafaxin 150mg I feel great. I didn't know that you were supposed to feel like this, not high and not low, jsut perfectly normal - I don't like that word either but it's the right word. I have tried to so many anti-depressants in the past, too many, some were dreadful and some jsut did not work but with the help of an undersatnding doctor - I always told him the truth - I know I have to be honest or else I'd never have survived the deep, black pit, and believe me I've been in that pit thinking I'd never come out of it. At times other doctors jsut kept prescrbing me Prozac - hopeless for me, but eventually, and it wasn't an easy journey, I have found an anti-depressant that works wonders. Now I'm having to come down to 75mg from 150mg and it scares me, I have never felt so well in all my life - I know that's a big statemnet but I didn't know this is how life was supposed to be. It's wonderful.
I could never have believed that I would be writing this last February when I totally crashed, but here I am, surviving - no, not surviving! I'm living life to the full, surviving is what I was doing before venlafaxin.
Just hang in there and try everytihng that is offered, I promise you one day you will find somehing that works. Do not just accpet what the doctor gives you, make sure you are given the help and support you are entitled to.
My best wishes are with you.
