thank you so very much for your story. it's really hard here and i'm going to call on monday and see what my options are, otherwise i guess look around town. i know i need to be honest..it's just really hard for me, but i'm sick of this feeling. and thank you for the information regarding the medicine.

Hi Scarred I'm 20, and in my third year of college, and I know exactly how you feel. I have had similar experiences with bad counselors and such, and it is a problem, and one I find inexcusable. Just to answer some of your questions though, everything you tell them will be kept confidential. The cutting, the drugs, everything. The only thing they will notify anyone about is if you are seriously planning on attempting suicide. My story is similar to yours, and I am afraid that you may be on the path to suicide. I recently tried to take my life, and it is a sad thing. No one wants you to die. I don't want you to die. Happiness is a hard thing, but I think it may be attainable. I had never been on any medications until 3 weeks ago, and now I am on 2; Zoloft, and Wellbutrin. I will give you some info on them, as far as my experience goes (and not everyone's experience is the same). My first 2 weeks on them were very very difficult. They made me feel sick to my stomach, and they gave me a headache, and they made me really really really sleepy. I am still sleepy, but it is getting better. This last week on them has been good though. I have energy again, and I am attempting at becoming a good student once again. I can't tell if there has been any significant improvement on my mood, but my psychiatrist (who is the only one who can prescribe you medicin, not a psychologist) thinks she sees some improvement. I think the medication is worth a try. There is some discomfort, but think of the mental anguish we go through. What would you do to be done with it? Also, just some tips on how to get the most out of your therapy. #1 is be very very honest. They are not there to judge you, only help you. The one's who yelled at you before were total idiots, and should not be in the field. #2 be peresistant. It might seem at first that they are reluctant to help you, but if you BE HONEST and tell them about the cutting and suicidal thoughts and whatever else, they will be more willing to help than if you just sat "I'm feeling sad, and I have for a while". (that is all I used to say, and saying that will get you a pat on the head, but not much more).#3 Make sure you find good people, or at least do your best to. This can be hard sometimes, but it can be done. I wish

Scarred, Please take our Depression Test. Once you receive the results you may take them to your doctor. This will better assess the situation for the both of you. Right down your questions and present them and let your doctor initiate the conversation. Perhaps he will recommend a more suitable type of therapist. Medications are to help you, not hinder you. Keep an open mind and talk to others on the site about medications and how they feel about taking them. Your pharmacist can also help with valuable information. Our online support group can be very helpful and knowledgeable. Please rely on us to help you where needed. You can do this! Keep strong, Josie ___________________________________ The Depression Center Support Team.

ok so i'm freaking out because i'm realizing that being away from home (while i was continually sad) is much better than being here...where i have no friends and no one that i can talk to. i tried seeing a psychologist and did not like her and felt she was too pushy. i think i'd do better with a male...as my only experiences were w/ females that were too pushy or yelled at me. the problem is i'm someone who keeps everything to myself. i'm terrified about telling them about me, because what if they have to notify someone? i am 19 and i've never been on medication but i'm at the point where i can't stand this feeling anymore. what do i do? how do i approach them and even say this? is medicine the wrong way to go? what information are they required to tell, and will they keep past cutting and drugs and alcohol between us? i can't discuss this with anyone back home and i have no friends here that i can even say "hi" to let alone something serious. again, i am sorry if this has been discussed but i didn't know where to go and i was hoping that someone would be able to help. thank you.