Hi everyone, I just wanted to share something I heard today. You know that feeling we all get, that feeling like we are doing something wrong, or what we are doing just doesn't feel right. Well I was told a story today, and basically the story says that the feeling you get are two dogs that are fighting inside of you. One is a dog of courage and the other is a dog of fear. When asked what dog wins, most say courage, some might say fear. But the dog that wins is the one you feed the most. I can really relate to this, I feed the dog of fear all the time. I doubt myself and let fear control what I do. Heck at times I don't even 'cheer' for myself and I have no confidence in myself so how can I expect others to have confidence in me. I just thought this was pretty inspirational. Just remember, the dog that wins the fight inside you is the one that you feed.

Hi Jeremy, I don't know if I'm doing this right. I mean for this to go under your poem about crying. It just reminded me of earlier today when i was crying on the couch. I knew I was upset, but I couldn't really figure out just why I was crying. I was just lying there, hoping no one would notice (I didn't want to go to my bedroom because its cold in there, pretty lazy I guess). Its nice sometimes though to cry, its like scratching an itch. I'm new too.

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Here is a poem I wrote about my feelings. "To Cry" What is crying What is rain Leaves the body Like poring rain Feel the trickle against your cheek As it leaves for you a trail to keep Is there a use to this creation To feel sorrow To feel ****ation To feel pain So much so that it comes out like rain Rain falling form inside of you Physical pain can make it rain But psychological pain is mostly to blame So I will cry tonight and cry tomorrow Until my heart is empty of sorrow Its weird, sometimes when I cry, I almost don't even logically know why I am crying. Tears, water, running out of your eyes, its such a strange way of expression but it is almost the only way I can express my feelings and let them out.

A kind story, and its weird, the words at the end of this story almost always make me want to cry because there are some many times I don't believe somebody wants to be with me or someone loves me. Sure I love my parents and I know they care about me but its like I want the love from someone outside my family too. Hope you like the story. "SOMEBODY" This teenager lived alone with his mother, and the two of them had a very special relationship. Even though the son was always on the bench, his mother was always in the stands cheering. She never missed a game. This young man was still the smallest of the class when he entered high school. But his mother continued to encourage him but also made it very clear that he did not have to play football if he didn't want to. But the young man loved football and decided to hang in there. He was determined to try his best at every practice, and perhaps he'd get to play when he became a senior. All through high school he never missed a practice nor a game, but remained a bench warmer all four years. His faithful mother was always in the stands, always with words of encouragement for him. When the young man went to college, he decided to try out for the football team as a "walk-on." Everyone was sure he could never make the cut, but he did. The coach admitted that he kept him on the roster because he always puts his heart and soul into every practice, and at the same time, provided the other members with the spirit and hustle they badly needed. The news that he had survived the cut thrilled him so much that he rushed to the nearest phone and called his mother. His mother shared his excitement and was sent season tickets for all the college games. This persistent young athlete never missed practice during his four years at college, but he never got to play in the game. It was the end of his senior football season, and as he trotted onto the practice field shortly before the big playoff game, the coach met him with a telegram. The young man read the telegram and he became deathly silent. Swallowing hard, he mumbled to the coach, "My mother died this morning. Is it all right if I miss practice today?" The coach put his arm gently around his shoulder and said, "take the rest of the w

Its like I let fear control what I do. Even now, I am going to drive to scout a basketball game and I am worrying about driving. I worry that I will get rejected if I ask a girl out, I worry how I will do on a test, I worry if I will make a certain dead line, I worry if I will ever get a girl friend, I worry if I will ever get a job, I worry about everything. I am scared of these things or nervous about them. I am not very sevre so much so that I don't do anything, so thank God for that. But I still am nervous when I do certain things even if they are things I like.

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Hi everyone, I am new to this site. I decided to register because I think it would be good to speak to other people that are going through similar stuff in their life. Well I took the depression test and it says I have social anxiety disorder, it says that I am depressed and I get nervous when I am around people and I worry about almost everything in my life. I don't know how to get help. Part of me thinks it is just because I am lonely. I am a 21 year old college junior and I have never when on a date in my life and I have never had a girl friend. I can't help but think there must be something wrong with me, either I am not good enough or I am not attractive enough to get a girl friend in my life. I get really down sometimes, and the only source of comfort I have is when I cuddle my blankets on my bed and just cry. I want a hug so badly and just have a shoulder to cry on, but I am to macho to open up to people. Its like I am waiting for this perfect girl to just come along, ask me out, and comfort me and then I can open up to her and it will be ok and I won't have to worry about me not being good enough to have a girl friend. Its weird, depression, its like something is personally wrong with you. Like you have a messed up brain and only doctors can fix it. It goes up and down, sometimes I just feel like I can't take it anymore. But I don't think I can help myself, and I don't have friends really, I don't let people get close to me. The only place where I tell people my feelings is online because I am more comfortable talking that way. And sometimes I think I am being selfish, there are so many people that are in much worse positions than I am. Some people can't eat, some people don't have anywhere to sleep and here is me crying over not having a girl friend.