Im having a really awfull time lately. I went to a party last nite and feel like i spent the whole time making an idiot of myself even though i didnt have that much to drink. I often feel like that in groups even though people tell me im outgoing. We went to a lovely restaurant and would hardly touch my food as i was convinced i would get food poisoning and be sick, hospitalised and even die! , either that or someone is trying to poison me. Is this OCD? Its taking over my life these days , it goes away for a while then comes back. I know deep down its very irrational but i still wont let it go. Im also deeply depressed these last few days. My family and me are fighting and i lost my handbag yesterday, why is everything going so wrong? I was doing really well for a while, and even though im on tablets there not helping at all, even though they did before, when things were bad. Im throwing up all the time i cant stop i keep thinking being thin will help my problems go away. I also keep thinking everyone knows about my terrible obsessive compulsive behaviour. Does anyone else have weird obsessions like this i feel like a freak and i cant go on, i feel like im dying inside, where is the light at the end of the tunnel?
