Hi , I dont know what I have or whats going on in mind, i cant work, because im afraid of people, but I seem like a person with self confidence, Im 25 and feel down every single day, i think too much about death and losing people i love, I think horrible thoughts , I hate myself, im angry with the world, and my world, ive taken meds before and it just made me overweight ( which made me worse), also other have made me more angry, i have been like this for 3 years, sometimes i think it takes an effect on my body, my knees play up and i dont feel like moving much , i used to be very creative, and really liked my work too, im just not sure what is happenening now, its getting worse, there feels like there is nothing left anymore:(