I am seeking help again. A little background...
I am a 37 yr. old student at a private university. I consistently make bad decisions, i dont fit in with the student body, i have trouble making friends. While i have been depressed for most of my life, more or less, this recent episode was brought on when i got fired from a hotel job months ago for being emotional excitable in dealing with customers and panicing. i hate that i am like that and i wish that i wasnt like that but i am.
now i am running up debt, i refuse to clean my house, and i am skipping classes though my grades are really good...i would like to go to grad school in the near future. i am sabotaging myself and i dont know how to stop.
i have been sober for 8 yrs now but none of what i here in the prg seems to be helping
my first therapy appt is in a week and i dont know what to do in the meantime. i am trying to stay afloat as best as i can but dont know if i can
