hello. i am a 25 yr old who has recently discovered i may have depression. it has been difficult for me to admit that i have this problem beause depression runs in my family genetically, my mom has it and i believe my grandmother may also. I think it all started with graduation from high school, i had given up college to move in with my grandmother because she was ill with flu or something and i had to get a job, take care of her, and start being an "adult". Of course it didn't help that i had practice being an adult since the age of 10/12 or so. I had to go through my mom and step-dad separating and getting divorced at that age. Any how i moved in with grandmother and about a year or two later i met my birth father for the first time. About year or so later i moved out of grandmothers into first roomate situation, started daing the guy i was roomating with, got pregnant about a month and a half or so later, we decided to get married-five weeks after we found out i was pregnant, we were husband and wife...and long story short i had my daughter, a loving husband, nice house and yet, i somehow became a different person after the birth of my daughter. I became tired, irratible, sad, overwhelmed, and found myself losing interest in looking good, doing daily chores/keeping things clean, having intamacy with my husband..etc etc. I realized things were bad when my husband and i would argue over my actions and what was going on. It even got to the point of a "if things don't change..." discussion that involved the D word. I realized if i didn't start trying to get help i could lose everything. So, i went to a doctor and had blood tests, a physical and nothing medical was wrong and i heard the statement about depression. So, i guess i just need advice on what next? Should i consider anti-depressants, should i try pushing myself to "get back to normal" ? What can i do to help finish the process of accepting my problem? I am considering meds but i will discuss with husband and give alot of thought. Please give me any info if possible on how to deal. Bright side: At least im trying something!Thanks
