What you are saying does not sound nutty. I know exactly what you are saying. I would much rather be at home than anywhere else. I occasionally allow myself a full day of not leaving the house and those are the days I usually feel best, but I know the longer I stay holed up, the harder it will become to go out so I don’t stay home for more than one full day at a time. I am also taking 2 classes to see how it goes, and also so I have a reason to leave the house every day. I am looking for a part time job as well but no luck so far. Last summer I volunteered at the hospital one afternoon a week. They were very appreciative to have the help which boosted my self esteem a little, and again, it was a reason to leave the house. I have a hard time going for a walk or doing something that only I know I’ve done. I try to find things where someone expects me but that aren’t too stressful or time consuming so I can get back home quickly on days that I’m feeling particularly bad. So my opinion is that some time at home is okay, but do what you can to get out and don’t let yourself stay home for long periods of time.
