Hey...I'm new here. I'm hoping to find some support, information, laughs, and be able to just talk (type) about what's going on in this roller coaster of life.
I have spiraled into a depressive episode that has been more intense and consistant than any I"ve ever experienced before. I cry at the drop of a hat over anything, shoot...over nothing! I have all the "symptoms" of major depression and am just overwhelmed of the grip it has on me. The lack of control I have over my emotions.
My doctor started me on Effexor about a month ago..am now on 75 mg. I swear I'm more depressed,irritable, easily annoyed, and get angry too often.
Does the other unstable moods go with depression? Does anyone have any feedback about this? I sometimes wonder if I'm bi-polar but I don't have the "highs" or manias that I read about.
I have been so short with my husband, and kids. I apologized to my husband the other night for getting so upset. He made the comment that it's like Jekyll and Hyde. I don't think it's that exteme. But, I'm not on the outside looking in.
I've tried to explain that I'm overwhelmed because I don't feel like I get a thing accomplished during the day. He commented that he knew how that was. UGH! Please, don't tell me you know how that is when you are able to go to work, able to function,etc. I am lucky somedays to get a shower without napping afterwards. I'm so exhausted and weak most days. Fibromyalgia the doc says....I don't know what it is. I'm just sooo frustrated and discouraged. I am sick and tired off feeling sick and tired.
I'm scared this is going to be a life long reality. I so don't want it to be.
Send rays of sunshine!
