Hi. Batty. I am dealing with "I'm angry, I don't know how I feel, I love and miss you" with my husband. I think that is a fair reading of what he is doing. But, and this is a big but, (lol) he said he was on meds and I called him on it that he wasn't and he isn't.So, you are doing much better handling this than he is because you are taking yours. I have really listened to you and I have talked with a counselor and you both have said the same thing. Nothing you can do; take care of yourself. What is it that you are doing on the 16th? I do want to know how you are afterwards. I think that your posts show a lot of strength. Your best self will win over. It is amazing how this type of illness affects so many people. I just had no idea. I care that you are doing better. I think that a lot of people that don't feel good inside mask it with smiles. That makes it worse, I think, because they think that they might be ok. It is help that they need. I will tell you it is hard on the people that love them because you are really standing beside them and there isn't anything that you can do. What I have trouble with is this-maybe you can help with this-if he loved me enough wouldn't he seek and take the help that is there to be better-just a small question. I was glad to see you post. Your friend, What Now.
