Well, it was a short vacation off my medications. Nothing really bad happened, but I did want to report how I felt off my medications for the past 5 1/2 days. It was not a long time, but last night I started to scare my husband, because I was talking so loud. I think what I experience when I stop taking my meds is a speeding up of my thinking processes; the synapse blocker being removed, and I feel like I am thinking faster. My husband says I get speeding thoughts, but that when I do, it is often easier to make mistakes, like speed driving. Well, anyway, I did not get any bad withdrawal symptoms from this medication, but I did find myself rather the opposite of being withdrawn and socially phobic. It is kind of a high, but along with the high is a kind of emotional outbursts and shocking people with my thoughts. I didn't want to scare my husband anymore, or get too nervous, so today I just picked up medication from my clinic, as I couldn't see the doctor. They were waiting for me to call...If I stayed off them longer, I know I would be making a fool of myself in a short time, because I did start to feel more self-conscious, and nervous around people toward the end. So...it is a weird feeling. Our brains are such a delicate marvellous thing; I hate tampering with mine with medications, and often want to stop, but I hate becoming a social outcast even more, so I'm back!
