When I was young, I used to always have some girlfriends; to play with, to walk to school with, to have lunch with, and then I moved to another city. I learned to have new friends, but I never felt really close to most of the friends I made in my 20's. In my 30's I met a few people that had similar background problems, and we became close friends, but they were not good friends, because they both betrayed me and hurt me very badly. After that, I kind of stopped having really close friends. I moved to another country, and with the culture and language barriers I am now more isolated than ever. I have many acquaintances, but when people start to feel my depression they usually back off. And I have learned to just live most of my life alone. I don't trust hardly anyone now. Just my husband. I wish I could find the right friends, like I had growning up; but I did not stay were I grew up, and my friends are all much younger than me, or older, and I cannot seem to fit in where I am living very well. So I can feel for you too.
