Hi Twilight Tender and welcome to the Support Group. I am not a new member but still relatively new and have completed the first 2 sessions of the program. I am pleased that you have a positive approach to this. Unlike yourself I am not currently attending any therapy groups etc, but I have done in the past, and agree with you that there is something about the "anonymity" of this particular approach that can in fact be quite helpful.
In keeping with this positive approach of yours, which all of us depression sufferers doing the program are trying to keep or develop, I was interested in your comment "...I go to sessions...and I act so much better than I am..." I can certainly understamd that situation, but what is a bad thing in one way ie "I cannot tell these people how bad I really feel" does have a positive element to it as you have said "I act so much better than I am." This is really very positive because it means that you ARE able to act in this way on occassion at least, whereas whem we at at our worst we can't even PRETEND that we're OK because we feel so bad. I certainly couldn't when I felt that bad but when I began to get a little better I also found that I could "act" better than I was.
I'm probably not explaining this very well but I think this is a helpful sign for you that you can continue to build on so that one day you will act so much better because you ARE so much better. That is certainly my hope for you and of course for myself and all of us doing this program and/or using this Support Group.
I hope you will let us all know how things are going as you continue to use this program.
Best wishes
MRB
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