Gabbi,
I am sorry to hear that you are not doing well. I think your husband knows which buttons to push and that makes you feel bad. I think he is just doing this so you won't leave. Keep your chin up and try and think about your future with your kids. I know that it is hard to think positive right now, but look back on last week when your took your daughter and son on their errands. You know you can do it but you are scared. We all have faith in you and we all know you can do it.
Remember, you always have a friend and confidant in me and I am here for you.
For me, things are going well. I just finished going for a 2 hour walk outside and did some shopping. I go back to therapy on Wednesday and we will be discussing why I left Australia and the guilt I feel around my boyfriend, who died in a car accident in 1991. I was supposed to met him for drinks on a Friday after work, but I had a huge migraine and when I got home from work I went straight to bed. I didn't phone him or let him know that I was doing. That evening he got in a car with another guy, they had both been drinking and decided to drive to Adelaide, but they never made it. If I had only contacted him he might still be alive today. In that same year I had my best friend murdered and I have never come to grips with that. That is the reason why I left Australia.
Take care - Sharon
