I dont really think i can offer any advice about your family its a difficult situation but you can either take it on the chin and get on with your life with those you are close with or you can fall to pieces.You a are strong person i can tell by your posts although you may not think so you will be ok Kat.It is hard to deal with being let down by people we love i understand how you feel there i think you really need to open up to your husband and tell him what bothers you and what you want from him in your time of need then go from there.I also have issues with my husband working all the time and not being here he gets 4 days off a month and chooses to go out those nights and get drunk so the next day he sleeps and the kids and i dont spend any quality time with him.Then he has the hide to wonder why im always angry with him.Go figure.Anyhow enough about my dramas we will get through this its just hard at the moment but thats depression for you.Im here anytime you need a friend.Gabbi.
I guess i was testing his love. im sick of people letting me down. i have almost no family now. my mom dissown her family. she thinks me and my sister arent good enough. she moved recently and didnt tell noone were she lives and never calls so shes out of the picture. she is hateful. my dad just got out of jail after years and years of not being hear and he thinks he can call now and things are all good. i have no other family just me my sister and my neice. friends let me down too. and do you no what? after me breaking down my husband had the nerve to want to go with his cousin the next day! im not saying he should babbysit me but i only see him twice a week if at all(hes in the military on his base) ive always been here for him when he left back to his base he left mad and was so cold with me. i asked a guy friend why he would be mean like that and drive away while im on the bed crying because i was mad at him and he told me i could do better because he doesnt appreciate nothing i did for him. after ive been here for him now that i have a problem he acts like a ass. i hate when people dissapoint me. this friend cares and wasnt trying to make me feel bad but he sais he thinks somethings up with him. why would someone that sopposedly cares be so mean to someone broken.
Hey Kat dont beat yourself up your husband is willing to help you get help for this so i dont think hes going anywhere.I agree with moth i think maybe your testing his love for you i know thats exactly what i did when i was first diagnosed i pushed and pushed him away and if he had of left i could of said see i told you so but he never(not nescessarily a good thing now though).I do know that drinking dosnt help i did that too and truly it makes it so much worse please get in and see a doctor they will help decide the best treatment for you.Just remember you are not alone.Hugs.Gabbi.
Hi Kat,
I understand when you say you told him to leave but you would really hate him to leave. I do that too.
I don't quite know why.
Like you I feel he deserves better.
How long have you been using this site?
It sounds like your husbadn knows that you need some hlep adn is trying hsrd to help you get it because he loves you. Does he understand what depression is and why you might be drinking a bit too much?
No I don't think it is selfish. You and he made a commitment. He wouldn't stay if he didn't want to. When we make a commitment to each other we have to take the warts and all. I sometiems feel that my partner lies to me about his love for me.Then sometimes I feel very alone as I feel he is not right for me.
I feel you might keep pushing him to see how much he can take. Are you testing his love?
When you think he looks at you like your family does, maybe that is your interpretation of his look? He maybe is feeling helpless and worried about you?
How long have you been together?
Hang in there and see what comes when you get some help. Keep talking here too - as I'm sure there is lots of help here .
Moth
once again i broke down in front of my husband. he must think im a nut. right now hes going to get me a military id so i can get some insurance. then i can get some meds and some phycological (i spelled it wrong) that i really need. im tired of dealling with this alone. its just to hard. im sick of being tired and depressed all the time. yesterday i showed him some web sites plus this one on depression. he has some understanding on it. i am not medicated or seeing a phycologist now so i drink. that doesnt help at all the little bit of family i have left looks at me like im nuts and now i know my husband looks at me the same way after i spased out this morning. i was drunk and told him how i really am as opposed to being his happy cute little house wife. now he sees how ugly i am. what should i do? i really would hate to leave him but i told him he could go and he said he would never leave me. i was realived but is that selfish? he doesnt deserve this.
