Hey Kelly i know just how you feel and i cant really offer much advice other than to just keep making yourself do what you gotta do i know its hard but you will have good times again im here if you need me.Gabbi.
I know those feelings so well - the uncontrollable crying and despair usually hit me at night - wakeful in the wee hours. Then sometimes it hits driving to work - no reason - just feeling like an "alien" - like I don't belong on this earth and the tears just flow. I can usually control it at work, and I'm lucky to work in a very supportive environment. Meds so far don't help a lot; when the do I get angry because they take away the little bit of relief and joy I feel when walking on my mountain or taking my photographs or playing with my cats. And I can't stand not to have any joy - I think I'd rather have the tears and some little bits of joy than the flat, nothing.... Although sometimes I'm not sure. A long way around to say that you are not alone - most often that may not help a bit, but if it does it was worth writing. My thoughts and love are with you.
kelly,
Have you taken our Depression test? You can print a copy and take it to your doctor. This will better assess the situation.
Try the program and go slow. It is free and many members have raved of its success. Please let us know how we can help.
Josie
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The Depression Center Support Team.
HELP! I'm sitting here at 6:45 in the morning trying my hardest to get myself up and ready for work. I missed 3 days last week, and just can't miss any more. I just don't understand where these feelings of sadness and dread come from! I have a wonderful life and should feel so blessed that nothing should get me down. I have cried since my alarm went off this morning and can't even put my finger on the reason. I know this happens to people with clinical depression, but sometimes it just drives me crazy! I am so sad and feeling like the bottom is falling out of my life. I can't even think about getting out of bed in the morning without feeling sick to my stomach. AAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHHH!
Kelly
