Thank you. I hope this website can be helpful and look forward to being a part of it.

Hi Trying to Make it, Welcome to this website, I hope you will find this a comforting place to express your thoughts and feelings and use the tools provided. I can't give you any advice at all, because I am also going through marital problems and have an 8 year old son. It's a shame that you don't feel you can trust your therapist, I don't know what I would do if I couldn't trust mine. He has been a life saver for me and a life line to hold on, especially the first two weeks before I saw a psychiatrist and started on meds. If you don't have any other choices in therapist's that would be difficult. I know that writing in a journal either on the computer every day or in the begginning on paper was a great help to me. I never realized how much I had to say each day. Then I realized that for the past 10 years or so I have not been able to talk to him about everyday things without his disapproval or criticism. It's like not having anyone to share your intimate feelings with, which made me feel so alone most of the time. I don't share my home life with anyone, so as you know life can be unbearable without someone to communicate with. I understand how hard it can be and I hope you find someone to talk to that you feel comfortable sharing your daily struggles. Take care and welcome again to the group.

Hi TryingToMakeIt, Welcome to the site. Thank you for sharing your introduction here with us. You have found a great place to share your feelings and experiences of depression with members who truly understand what it is like to have these feelings. We hope that you find our program helpful. Many members have reported great success with it. Be sure to work at your own pace through the steps. We look forward to hearing from you again soon, Casey __________________________________ The Depression Center Support Team

Hi. I've been trying to cope with my MDD for a long time now and haven't seen the success I need. I found this site and I want to try the program in hopes that it will provide help. My story started about 5 years ago when my middle child (14 at the time) started being a problem in school and at home and started having legal problems. My wife and I tried to do wht was right but someone in the process she decided that I wasn't helping and I was pushed away from the process. In time she decided that it was more important to her to "fix" our daughter than it was to keep our marriage intact. I had (still don't have) no support system or anyone I felt I could talk to so this started the downward spiral. After a year and a half a friend asked me if I was ok following a meeting we were at and the whole story came spilling out. It was SO nice to have someone to talk to because my wife and I had nearly separated a couple months earlier and my daughter had been sent to a state hopsital for evaluation a few days earlier. The marriage issue did not improve, in fact it got worse, but the conversations between myself and my friend increased. In retrospect it was a bad idea because she ended up divorcing her husband and, after about 5 months we began a relationship which she abruptly ended after about a month by moving in with someone else. That nearly put me over the edge and did put me in a psych ward for a few days. My wife and I had been separated for 4-5 months by now and, despite attempts to reconcile, we ended up divorced about a year and a half later. To add to this, my employer wound up filing for bankruptcy so I lost my job and my health insurance and my two oldest, including the one that had been in trouble, were now gone from home and seldom called or kept in contact. My youngest, even though we are only 11 blocks apart, seldom calls or stops by and when I call he is usually busy with one thing or another. I am working on a new relationship but I am finding that very difficult because of the MDD and my seeming inability to get better. I've been on every drug imaginable but Zoloft seems to be providing some relief. Talk therapy, for me, has been useless because I don't trust my therapist and, where I live, there are no other choices for a therapist. Once in