StarryDreamer,
You feel free to vent and rant here all you want. We have all done it at one time or another. I'm sorry your husband isn't as supportive as you need him to be. It is very difficult for those not afflicted with the disease to understand what we are going through. It is a terrible sick joke of this illness that convinces us that we are totally alone, and that we aren't worth listening to. I agree with wishingwell that having a computer journal might be a good compromise for your journaling issue. My other thought was, instead of you hiding in the back of your wardrobe, maybe you could put your journal there. :)
Anyway, it may not help right now, but please know that all of us here have been where you are, and understand the set back thing. Keep us updated on how you are doing, we're here to help!
Kelly