Because a friend of mine heard of this site and suggested I check it out. I am currently being treated for depression and I am hoping to meet others whom I can relate to. I get really upset after meetings with my counsler as I did after I did my first quiz here. I guess its cause I dont talk about the inner me to anyone and so those feelings get pented up . I was sick for what I am now seeing for many years before I seeked treatment( about 10 I beleive now ). I made a lot of bad decisions and used very very poor judgements. My kids dont see it or dont want to see that I am trying to improve my state of mind. My daughter is the one whome is the hardest on me. I wrote a poem for them that I wish to shate with everyone. Its called Just Me
I am who I am No one special Just me !
I am a mom who loves her kids to death
I try so hard but I must confess
I cant seem to do the job well,
I often wonder where I first fell?
Try as I might to make things right,
I often cry many tears in the silence of night.
For many years I was sick and out of control
And now that I am trying to get up out of that hole
I still get reminded of that dark sole that once embedded me,
like a Trojan on a PC.
I have been trying to heal myself and its hard
When I am hated and talked to with no regard,
It makes me want to give up and die,
These kids will always be the apples of my eye.
They both mean the world to me, I guess its just to late for me.
The rejection is killing everything inside me,
For every two steps forward I get pushed back three.
I am not trying to wear a mask, or do a new dance,
All I want is to be given a chance
I am who I am, nothing more, nothing less..
I am just me!!
