Hello everyone. I am a 36-year old female who has struggled with major depression for over 18 years. It seems the older I become the more depressed I get. I've gained some relief of depressive symptoms from various meds over the years but recently I'm feeling significantly miserable, hopeless, worthless, scared, anxious, and alone. I'm also experiencing many stressors in my life right now....social, educational, occupational, finacial.... To sum up my situation, I've been struggling hard to finish a masters degree, have been trying to find a job for several months, feel anxious about finances, feel disconnected from family and friends, uncertain and fearful about my future, and feel a great deal of regret about my life thus far. I'm completedly overwhelmed with issues and I find myself crying everyday and feeling more and more isolated. I feel like my life has spiralled out of control and I don't know where to begin to put it back together.
I guess this is fresh start. After coming to the depression center for help and reading many of the posted comments I can see that I am not alone. As I read individual stories I relate to what others are experiencing and my heart goes out to all of you. Although, we all have unique life stories our symptoms are very common and extremely self-defeating and debilatating. My hope is to reach out to others for support (something I havn't been very good at) as well I'd also like to be supportive of others (something I am proud that I have been for others in my life). I'm looking forward to this journey and meeting other members.
:)jluv
