I replied to the previous user's post, but I figure to formally introduce myself, I should start a new discussion. I'm 22 years old, a senior in college, and I suffer from major depressive disorder and dysthymia. I've acknowledged its presence for at least 5-6 years, but as I read more about depression (especially childhood depression since I'm taking abormal child psychology this summer), I realize I may have had it for a much longer time. As I look back into the past, I see emptiness and sadness. As I look into the future, I see hopelessness. I feel like I'm just stuck. I had so many friends. I had a loving boyfriend, but he left me a little over two months ago. My family drives me crazy (who's doesn't?!), but I can't live without them anyway. My mind just runs alllll day long. I've bought books to help me understand my problem, but I don't think I've done enough to really get better. I have been on different medications for a short period at a time. I suppose I get discouraged when some stressful event takes place and I stop taking them. Right now, however, I am making myself stay on the current medication. I've been on it for about 3 months. I go to a psychiatrist, but I don't really like her. I'm trying to get myself into regular, consistent therapy at my college, but they don't seem to have appointments available since they are understaffed. Talking to friends can be annoying because I can't seem to find the words! I don't know.. I hope this 16-session program will help be in a better place than where I am now. I hope to meet new people and hope to help them as well!
