Hi everyone. My name is John, am 42, and I live in SE Louisiana. I was diagnosed with MDD in 1998, while living in Florida.
I have a host of other medical issues that I won't bore you with, but suffice it to say that 3 of them are potentially fatal, if I'm not careful.
I was originally put on Paxil, but after 2 days of the side effects, basically not being able to move without tossing my cookies, I told my doctor that I would not take it any longer. I was then put on 50mg Zoloft per day. That seemed to work ok for a while, until 2 years ago, when I snapped one day, and admitted myself to the hospital. My dosage was upped to 150 mg a day, and that is what I am still on.
While living in Florida I had a wonderful therapist that I just loved. When I moved back to Louisiana (to be closer to family), I stopped seeing a therapist because I couldn't afford it (I am attempting to be approved for disability because of my other health conditions, but we are talking about the SS administration, and they are dragging their feet). After my hospitilization, I was referred to the local mental health clinic, but that was a big waste of time. Because of the hurricanes here, the local mental health system has become extremely overburdened, and sessions are at most 30 minutes, and most of the therapist seem really disinterested.
I have an appointment with my primary care doctor next week, and plan on talking with her about how I have been feeling lately, which in a nutshell is crappy. All I seem to want to do is sleep, and when I am awake, I just don't care. About anything. It is getting to the point where I am getting unnerved by how much I don't care.
I'm going to ask to be changed to a new medication, or at least have my dosage upped.
I'm hoping that between the medication and this site I will get a handle on things again.
Sorry for rambling, but this is really the first place that I have been able to open up.
Thanks.
