Hello,
Just started this program a few days ago, as fell deeply down already for the third time within 4 years... This time really want to finish up with something real, stop messing my life, not just "had drugs-feel ok", . Have a few worries, would like to share, your opinions are really welcome.
First of all, looked through five days history of my daily notes... Did not notice any specific reason for mood changes. Will I be able to define anything later on, by myself?
Also, as looked intensively through variuos sources of information, found some information, that most probably my self-isolation, anger, despair and negative attitude makes a great deal in my turns down, as I put myself in stress and live constantly without optimistic expectations. Read many ideas and suggestions, how to deal with negative thinking or fight the abusive mind, which turns the same pesimistic thoughts over and over, until I feel like crap. Just, such suggestions as "think optimistically", "remember good facts" etc - you know what I mean, I guess, sound so untruly when you feel down... This program also has some technique of overcoming bad thoughts or beliefs, as I understood, but is it really helpfull? I am [and was, and still expect] wishing I found power in myself to go through the CBT by myself, as psychologic help here is quite expensive, though, not sure, if I manage to do only by myself...
Sorry for mistakes, not native language. And thanks in advance for response.